mega nega

i must have been pretty dang depressed back in February of 2008. I always remembered making a blog, but neverrrr really had a bite to write anything else, after that really bright and shiny song. i'm going to try this again...mostly because i don't want people to think i'm a negatron. i just imagined someone saying at my funeral, "did you see lauren's blog post back in 2008-she must have been a really sad girl" see what i mean? NEGATIVE.

I've got a seriiiious negativity issue. You can ask my sweet boyfriend if you'd like, because he could definitely agree with me. I am negative about work. I am negative about my body. I am negative about sleeping (sounds weird, but yeah). I am negative about some certain friends' decisions. I am negative about my family sometimes. It's fine for awhile, but it's really starting to wear me out. I want to be a happy girl - because, deep down, I know I am happy. Why shouldn't I be? I've got a good set a parents, two out of three of my brothers turned out pretty good, a good boyfriend, and good friends too (Not really that many these days, but enough)....I forgot to mention an awesome God. He is so good....and to ME. I'm not sure why still, but He is. I am really working the issue of negativity. So please if I have a nasty comment about something, go ahead and slap me or something. *I'm talking to you, Chel. You are the only one who will read this...*

On another note, I'm running the 5K Race for the Cure on Saturday, and couldn't be more nervous about it. Yes, I have ran a half marathon, and yes I have been unprepared for past races....but I'm really struggling with running. Why my body can't run a mile in under 10 minutes is a question I don't know the answer to. Oh, don't even get me started.

Happy Wednesday, everybody...Chel.

Peace and BUHLESSINGS.